My Quest is Over!

April 19, 2009.

So it’s Sunday morning and I’m sitting in Seattle’s apartment watching “Meet the Press” while he’s making us waffles…I could get used to this. Unfortunately, I won’t get a chance to.

He just asked if I want a glass of juice and I glanced over at him and all I can think is, “God he’s cute!” I don’t want to stop staring at him. Not fair.

I’ve avoided saying this whole time “Leaving Monday is going to be so hard.” I’m trying to remain in the here and now and just enjoy the time we have together.

Got here Friday night and swore my heart was going to beat straight out of my chest while waiting to get off the plane. He greeted me outside the terminal in his work clothes. He looked sexy. We hugged and chattered all the way to baggage claim. Got in his car and started making out. Mmm…We drove back to his apartment, stopping for noodles on the way, brought the food back to his place and ate at the table. Then we took a short walk down to Rite-Aid (I had forgotten my contact solution) only to discover it had closed at 7pm. It was 10:30. It was great though, he showed me his campus where he goes to law school and pointed out the building where he works and showed me a bit of the gay bars on Capital Hill near his place.

We got back and attempted to watch an episode of ‘Dexter’ but it was so much more fun to watch one another, make out and yes, attempt to have sex. So, my streak is over. Friday was a little frustrating. I think it was a mix of nerves and emotions but for some reason Seattle couldn’t do it. He tried, but just couldn’t. He reassured me it wasn’t me, he is madly attracted to me.

Well, that didn’t stop us from trying again in the morning. Again, we ran into a bit of trouble. I was now on a mission…I needed to have sex with Seattle and I needed it to be amazing. He got up to shower and I was checking my email when I heard, “Irene?” “Yeah?” I responded. “Do you wanna shower with me??”

It was so cute the way he asked he sounded like he just stepped out of middle school and was awkwardly asking his crush out. Adorable. I couldn’t resist. I joined him.

We proceeded to have a most perfect day, exploring Seattle. He took me to an amazing brunch that overlooked the water and had a great view of the city, then we went for a Ferry ride to Bainbridge where we walked a bit around the harbor and found a great spot to sit and have a beer overlooking the boats. On the ferry ride back to Seattle we were surrounded by high school Prom-ers chattering away. We sat and made comments the whole way back. It was super fun.

Back at his place he made us dinner and we sat and talked politics. Then we cuddled, started watching ‘Dexter’ again and I moved in for the kill… Success! It was awesome! We hopped in the shower after…man it’s hard for me to keep my hands off of him. And vice versa.

We watched another episode of ‘Dexter’ followed by another round of amazing sex.

So I guess that’s it! My jig is up! Three and ½ months abstinent and here I am with a most amazing guy having great sex and no regrets. This does not mean I’m headed back to LA and back to bad habits. Not at all. I made it a goal for myself to not have pointless, meaningless sex. And I haven’t.

Seattle is great. I feel so strongly connected with him and it’s weird because he’s so extremely different than all the other guys I’ve ever been with. I think that’s why I like him so much.

We’re going out to dinner with some of his friends tonight and I’m super stoked to meet and impress them. I can’t wait! I may allow myself to get a little tipsy so that I’m more comfortable/more fun over dinner.

Man, how’d I get lucky enough to find such a great guy in a bar, but am unfortunate enough that he has to live far away…? Such is life.

Not sure where this weekend will leave us yet, but it sure has been great. More to come!

Prom Night Relived...

April 17, 2009.


Holy crow…this is unbelievable! I’m flying to Seattle right his very moment and have about and hour and 30 minutes until I see him! I’m super excited!

But first I must tell of my crazy night at 80’s prom. I totally slept with my prom date last night; however, I did not get laid. Figure out that riddle. We did it up royal last night! Our outfits were perfect! Our dates were hilarious and we painted LA very, very red. Seth was my prom date and he definitely didn’t disappoint. He even danced a bit at La Cita, the bar we went to Downtown. I remember most of the evening pretty well. It gets foggy near the end, but man was it worth it. At La Cita, Jess and I decided to get the party going and we dragged two unsuspecting victims onto the dance floor. My victim mainly took the job of keeping me off the floor.

After La Cita we headed back into the valley and went to our fave local spots. Nick was working the door at Maeve’s and all I remember is hugging him a LOT. Then Seth and I decided to head over to Fox and Hounds…God knows why and all I really remember about that is wiping out after taking a shot. I didn’t fall…oh no…it was a total wipeout. Ridiculously, utterly, embarrassing. Not going back there for a bit!

Then Seth, Jess and I all walked back to my place at the end of this night and Seth proceeded to pass out on the bathroom floor. I immediately went to bed and passed out, Jess hit on lil’ bro and tried to get a cuddle on. Then Lil’ bro woke me up and told me to get my drunken prom date off the bathroom floor so he could go shower. I dragged Seth into my bed and put him to sleep and fell asleep next to him (not even cuddling, thank God) and awoke in the middle of the night to the sound of him throwing up, in my bed…hoorah. Oh Prom. Now I know why twice is enough. Despite the messy ending, it was one hell of a night.

Then to make it even more perfect I got to wake up and catch a flight to Seattle. I can not wait. An hour and a half seems way too long right now. I’m so freaking anxious, a little nervous, happy, excited, glowing, I don’t even know. It feels unreal still. I’m gonna try to do my best and keep up the blogging this weekend, but I make no promises…I might find myself a bit distracted!

Oh sweet Joy….

Tears of...joy?

April 15, 2009.

I feel like a kid going to Disneyworld for the first time. I’m so excited about getting on a plane in 41 hours and 34 mins…

Plus this couldn’t have been planned any better. Tomorrow night is our 80’s prom that we’ve been planning. I’m going with Seth and I got a kick ass crazy dress that looks just like Madonna out of the 80’s. Hot!

Ugh, I still have lots to do before this weekend and I’m not exactly sure where to begin. Today was good though, I got up early to run, attempted to go to an audition, then went dress shopping with Lacey and am super stoked with my purchases. Worked all night made some good dough and now am gonna do a few more errands around the house before I can get some shuteye.

And all I want to be doing is talking to Seattle on the phone. Ok, so we had another nice long talk last night where I broke down crying and I’m pretty sure I heard some sniffles on his end too. I told him how frustrated I am with everything right now, because I really do want a relationship and I really do want it to be with him, but I don’t know if I can bring myself to do long-distance (for the third time in my life). Why is life so cruel?

He was upset because he talked to an ex who’s being ridiculously jealous and angry with him liking me and apparently she made a big scene at school and said horrible things to him. To be completely honest, she sounds psycho to me. But, I would never say that to Seattle because he’s got one crazy lady in his life, he doesn’t need two. Plus, I know how to win these battles. Remain calm, non-judgmental and supportive the whole time. Don’t get jealous, angry or tell him what to do, even if you know the right move. That way, he will always know you’re the right girl for him and not that other controlling, manipulative, psychopath b*tch. Oops…did I say that?

Ok, deep breath. I’m fine. Ha, oh man this weekend is definitely going to be one for the books. We’re both still really excited to see one another, it’s just very sad as well because we don’t know if at the end of the weekend things will have to change for the better or the worse. All I know is that I’ll most likely be crying on the flight home. That’s fo sho’. It just isn’t fair!! How come great guys don’t live in LA? I’m glad to know they’re out there, somewhere, it just isn’t fair that they don’t live here.

Destined to be an old maid…on to prom!!

White Trash Night

April 3, 2009.

It’s 2:55 am, and what better time then now to recap the night’s events! I just got home a little bit ago and had one of the greatest nights I’ve had in LA since being here. Spent the night with three great girls, Jess, Nikki, and Lacey. Started the night with dinner at Cecil’s with Nikki, then we prepared for our “white trash” night.

Andrew, the bartender from F&H invited us last night to come to his birthday white trash bash. So, we did our best to be the trashiest b*tchs around. I was DD, so I brown bagged a Disanni flavored water and bought Andrew a gold magnum condom and mini SoCo for his b-day present. The party started at 7pm, but we arrived fashionably late at 10:30pm. We, needless to say, were the only ones dressed the part. No one else got the memo…but we totally brought the party. Everyone loved our getups and our ‘tudes. It was truly a blast.

Also, strangely enough, I ran into someone I knew at the party! Small world, LA. Seth, as in Nate’s old co-worker and Margaret’s crush, was there. So funny, apparently him and Andrew are in a band together. Again, what a small world! I honestly never thought I’d see him again. But we chatted tonight and I invited him to be my date to the 80’s prom night we’re planning for the 16th. He’s just as stoked as we are! So yay! I have a date! Can’t wait for the word to get back to Margaret and Nate…ha! I’m so evil. Anywho, we decided our getups were too good to be wasted all night long in one place. So we stayed for about an hour or so and decided to get our show on the road.

We drove to Off Kilt and were about to go in, when we decided it looked too dead for our liking. We headed over to Chimney Sweep and inside, strange looks followed us everywhere. It was funny. It was way too quiet there for us, so we then tried a place called The Port, only to find it was way empty except for five people on stage playing Rock Band. Hmmm…we stayed there long enough to play with one guy and totally ruined his song, because none of us knew how to play. After that we dropped off Lacey, she was getting tired but the three of us kept on!

We were off to Pineapple Hill. There we finally planted ourselves. After all it was 1am and only 30 min till last call. We were only there for about 5 min and already made friends. Thanks to Nikki’s good looks. Three guys at the end of the bar started chatting us up. I ended up having a conversation with one guy and it led to us discovering that we had in fact met before and had a similar conversation. He knew Margaret because he was a regular at the restaurant she used to work at. Again, what a small world. Apparently, he had text her saying we should all hang out and she never gave me that message. Hmmm…

So, it was a very interesting evening. I forgot to mention that Andrew, when we were saying goodbye, definitely was hoping for a little smooch. He was blatantly trying and I just laughed and said, “I’m not gonna kiss you, drunky!” He then claimed he was only going for a hug…yup, ok, liar. He told me he thinks I’m cute and we should definitely hang out. I told him to call me, “You got my number.” Now, I’m sure Andrew’s a great guy, however, he’s got one attribute I just can’t get behind. In the short time I’ve known him, he’s been drunk 80% of it. And he’s a bartender and everyone knows bartenders like to drink. Plus, he’s got way too many similarities to Sam, and we all know how that ended up. Eek. I’m learning not to repeat mistakes. Slowly, but surely.

Ugh, 14 days!!!