Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Affection is Necessary.

May 27 2009.

You guys all gave me great advice about my last posts issue. But I just went ahead and slept with both of them anyway. I figured that was the easiest way to get them off my back! My boss was pretty good....adventurous, not a bad size and very senisitive after. We cuddled.

Todd was a bit rough, but I liked it. He called me names and pulled my hair. But again, after he was Mr. Sensitivity. We cuddled. I'm totally KIDDING!!! I would never do that. I agree with you all. I'm going to thank Todd and continue to tell him that what he did was very very unnecessary, but generous and appreciated. He really isn't the type of guy to do that just to get me into bed. It just definitely makes me feel like I owe him something in return. Our next dinner is definitely on me!

Work was fine today. Boss was there and we joked a little but not too much.

I realized how much I miss affection today. I want a man who will wrap his arms around me from behind and kiss my neck and whisper sweet nothings into my ear. I want that. It feels safe and nice and comforting. I can't even begin to tell you how much I miss that.

I just got home, am a little tipsy and should be going to sleep because I'm getting up bright and early to hike with the girls. Love it!

Can't tell you how much I desire to text Boss these days though. I really want him to understand that I do like him. I like him as a boss, I like him as a friend and if he were single and respectable, I'd like him as more. I think we've both gotten our signals crossed lately and are a bit confused. I hope the confusion ends soon.

Supposed to see Todd tomorrow evening. Still have yet to talk to him about his way too generous donation, I hope tomorrow we can talk about it. I need to be brave! I need to just blurt it out!

Ok...sleepy time. Night!


  1. oh my god. i was sooo "Wtf" when i started reading this post. lol i am glad you were kidding. not that i would have judged you otherwise. well, maybz a little bit. haha but only because your boss sounds a bit sleazy. i don't know about this todd fellow.

    good luck!

  2. i cant believe there really is NOBODY in L.A. maybe its because you meet your guys at bars?? maybe the meeting place needs to be altered...

  3. I think buying Todd dinner is VERY appropriate. Innocent, sweet, and not giving off the wrong message.

    Good call!

    PS: You totally got me on sleeping with both guys. Very funny.

  4. Oh I LOLd with your first couple paragraphs.

    I had a boss who had the hots for me... made things a bit uncomfortable there for a bit. Good luck!